I was thrown a curveball...
What can I say? The rug has been pulled out from under me. Pulled hard, fast, with dust particles flying everywhere. Will they ever settle? Seems that they won't. I'm flat on my face, rolling around, foggy, sad, sore, aggravated, and numb. Or how about a wrecking ball? It came in and took me down, knocked me stupid, crushed me, injured me, made me cry, made me angry, left me to deal with the residual effects and broken pieces. I'm a Christian - I love people but I have hate! I'm a Christian and I am supposed to forgive but I can't. I'm a Christian - I need to find my inner strength from my faith but I don't have it. Not today anyway. The other night I was in the same room as, made eye contact with, and NEVER expected to see, one of my abusers. I haven't seen him in years. I was not prepared for and was taken by surprise by his presence. I need reassurance. Reassurance that these feelings will pass, that I will work through them ( aga...